Welcome to speaking week.
LISTEN TO MODULE 5
Inner Child week unveiled some stuff, yeah? It always does. No matter how much healing we receive, our inner child will forever be the gateway into the parts of us that are wanting to be more expressed, more in alignment, and more FREE.
So, now that you’ve merged with your inner child in such a beautiful and intentional way, it’s time to take this wily little thang into week 5 where truth will be guiding our actions, and where speaking that truth sets us firmly int he direction of our desires.
I believe that if we struggle to share our whole, blatant, radically transparent truth, it’s because there are aspects of ourselves that don’t always feel safe. This results in us being semi highjacked by the scared version of us that has momentarily taken over our Truest Self. They might fib or withhold. They may even blatantly lie to the people around us or to ourselves.
Week 5 Practice
You are going to be reflecting and taking action on the moments when you are speaking anything less than 110% transparency. When are the moments where you feel completely truth-filled and void of shame? When are the moments where you feel like your throat chakra is a bit sealed up and scared?
Next week is all about action, and you are building to that this week with your voice. You will be journaling (or voice noting with your internal monologue) at the end of each day after observing your behavior. Keep your journal close to jot down anything that comes up. And use these prompts to help guide you…
Journaling Prompts
When did I feel completely transparent in conversation today? When I think about it, what do I feel in my body?
When did I feel shrinky and weird in conversation today? When I think about it, what do I feel in my body?
Were there any moments today where I tried to make myself look like something other than I am? If so, what/who was I trying to look like?
Now, if you had a shrinky weird interaction, get annoyingly clear on what the whole moment looked like. Ask your inner child, “what are you afraid of, sweet girl?”. Word this however you need to get to the root.
I spent the first part of my adult life denying what was true inside me. When I met my husband, I was so splayed open from burning my life to the ground that I was too exhausted to hide anymore. I told him everyhinggggg “wrong” I ever did in my past. Sweet guy really held the space and this is when Truth Speaking became a daily practice of mine that continues to beautifully impact the way I show up in the world today.
I am going to share some examples with you of how Truth Speaking has shown up in my own personal journey.
Example 1
My Truest Self knew that I wanted a life partner who I could connect with on a deep emotional level, one who was creative and nurturing, and one that I had profound chemistry with. I spent 4 + years with someone (prior to my husband) that was my best friend and adventure buddy, but only that. He struggled to tap into his emotions. There was no synergy. The chemistry was off. It took me a long time to speak my truth, but when I did, my whole world shifted for the better.
Example 2
I was recently asked to be a guest on a podcast and the topic the host wanted to talk about was not a “hell yes” for me at all. Instead of just pushing through because I often tend to meet peoples enthusiasm in the moment, I took a pause, a breath, and then told her my truth. I let her know that I would be open to talking about a different topic, one that feels exciting and aligned for me in the moment.
Example 3
I used to carry so much shame around my past with cheating. Because I was in so many consecutive unfulfilling relationships, I would cheat trying to get my needs met. I remember the first time I aired that out and the physical release I experienced. I said, “I can’t even count how many times I’ve cheated on _______ (previous partner).
By sharing what was true, I was teaching myself that even though I had done things that don’t feel aligned to me in my life now, that I am still able to love and have compassion for myself. That I don’t have to drown in the shame and darkness anymore.
Those were some heavier examples, however there are so many ways we can shrink our truth because we’re afraid of something. This week is about understanding what our fear is and about airing it out with the people we need to air it out with, even if that’s simply with ourselves.
You are going to notice when you feel the urge to sugar coat or people please or even fib and are going to use these moments as your compass to where inside you feel afraid. You will use your tools that you’ve gained through these last 5 weeks and give that part of you the healing and support they re asking for so you can be free.
This week is also about holding down the fort of your nervous system and treating yourself like the sweet girl that you are. Moving your body and breathing lots are non-negotiables this week.
